Little Update

So I've decided to stop trying to write more books and focus just on my poetry. It pains me to come to that conclusion. I've had all these ideas and I'll start writing them. But never finish. Maybe it's not meant to be. I love writing and poetry will always be my #1. I'm going to work on my 3rd poetry book. Once I get to 40 I'll see if they will publish, if not ill do some form of self-publishing.

Thinking Of Me

I wonder if you think of me

While your laying alone

I wonder if you think of me

While in the cold

Thinking

I could have had her but I gave up

Were you too scared?

I wonder if you think of me

If those feelings had been real

I wonder if you think of me

If you miss me

If you miss what little we had

It wasn't love, I know

It was something else

We were so close

I wonder how different my life would be

If you had chosen me

Would we be in each others arms right now

Would you be telling me about your day?

Your hopes and dreams we'd share

It's just a dream

I wonder if you think of me

If you think of the kiss

Those nights in your sheets

I gave you my soul

You controlled it

Till you let go

I wonder if you think of me

If you regret what we shared

I wonder if you think of me

While your laying alone

Your Voice

Your voice echoes in my heart

Our words torn apart

Little pieces of paper

They floated away in the murky water

Your eyes became mine

We saw it was time

I watched as you walked away

Oh, why couldn't I make you stay?

I would fall in your arms again

I would wait for you to take my breath away

Your voice echoes in my heart

All the way to my liver

Where the alcohol has taken over

Vodka tears fall from my swollen eyes

Now I'm alone

After all these years

I watched as you walked away

Oh, why couldn't I make you stay?

I would fall in your arms again

I would wait for you to take my breath away

Your eyes I can see in the memories

That will fade over time

They wither away everyday

It's the same heartbroken lullaby

The girl with love in her heart

The guy that makes it impossible to fight

Laying alone in the night

Bottle in hand

I watched you walk away

You wouldn't stay