She Needs Me

Sometimes I just want to run away

Leave everything behind

I sometimes wonder

if I made the best decision

As her screams echo in my ears

I cry

I can't fix her pain

I'm not sure I could ever do this again

Sometimes I see the beauty

But other times I don't

I wish I could hide

But I won't

I can't run

She needs me

I'm her mom

When do we enjoy this?

She doesn't laugh

She doesn't smile

Everything seems to take awhile

She came into this world early

She had it harder, more than I know

She's more stronger then ill ever be

Sometimes I see the beauty

But other times I don't

I wish I could hide

But I won't

I can't run

She needs me

I'm her mom

So Hard To Find

I lost myself in you

I couldn't identify

Why would you do this?

Why couldn't you let me be me?

I lost myself

I'm so hard to find

I wish everything were true

In time I'll realize it was all you

You gave me something.

Something to hold on to

I lost myself in you

Everything seemed like a dream

A nightmare I came to see

I couldn't identify

The faces blurred

I'm bruised and burned

Where am I?

I'm so hard to find

I lost myself in you

Wherever you are

You left with a piece of me

How do I go back?

I'm just a reflection

Of what you made me

Pieces of you drop like tears

Where am I?

You knew my fears

You are so hard to find

Little Update

So I've decided to stop trying to write more books and focus just on my poetry. It pains me to come to that conclusion. I've had all these ideas and I'll start writing them. But never finish. Maybe it's not meant to be. I love writing and poetry will always be my #1. I'm going to work on my 3rd poetry book. Once I get to 40 I'll see if they will publish, if not ill do some form of self-publishing.